this morning I woke up and cursed the sky

It's snowing.

It's almost June.

It's supposed to be spring.

Boo. boo. boo.

Why, Utah, why?!?!?!

There is (no) beauty in the breakdown

Maybe I'm just an idiot.

Or maybe the Periodicals Section of the library is really as confusing as it seems.

I swear I looked in the right section (AP 63 . C6697 Bry7QN E=mc{squared}).

Three times.

Dewey would not be proud.

Not at all.

And of course I would be doing this at 10:30 at night, when there are no kind attendants to help me find what I'm looking for.

Not their fault. Mine for procrastinating everything in life.

Goodbye my darling bed. It looks like we wont' be seeing each other for about 4 days.

Again.

Why do I always want what I can't have?


He has a girlfriend.

Utah winter is...

dangerous

cold

slushy

annoying

inconvenient

frustrating

ridiculous

monotonous

only pretty the first day when you are inside

endless

really sucky.

"Shout! Shout! Let it all out!" - Tears for Fears

You know what? It seems that we have control of every single thing in our lives: our careers, our mindset, our decisions everyday, our goals, our failures, our attitude even. There are not many things that can really be taken away from us unless we decide to give it away. But I would argue that there is one thing, one simple yet so majestically complicated thing in which we have absolutely zero control.... okay.... we have a tiny bit...

And for that one thing I am so SUPER frustrated! ....I hate losing control.... *Phooie*

Toys-R-Us

I've decided I don't wanna grow up. Yep. Made that decision just now. Why, you ask? Because it's just too gosh darn painful. When I was a kid all I had to think about was me and my Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles and how they and I were going to take out the Shredder... and Fritz, the next door neighbor's evil dog that chewed up my Casey Jones action figure.... I could have cared less what the girls thought of me. I could have cared less what kind of emotional support I was receiving. I could have cared less about tons.

Now... now... it's just pain...

Let me be six again. Let me have my Donatello's and Michelangelo's to rule the world...

... or maybe just the backyard...

WHAT is on Friday?

I hate football.

Kind of because it is on the same night as my planned foreign film night.

But mostly because I think it is lame.

The end.