that I'm leaving in a week and my room is a mess and I still need to buy a lot of things and try and use up the rest of my food and pack and start taking anti-malaria pills and finish up any last minute projects in the adlab and at work and try and stop thinking about how
I'm really scared that I'm going to have a panic attack when I see all the bugs or that I'll get attacked by gangs or get a tapeworm or fail at all my projects or not come back speaking better Spanish and I don't have time to
work out before I leave and I'm going to get fat eating pupusas and probably won't even have room for my running shoes in my suitcase (not like I'd use them anyway) but
somehow my enduring optimism better kick in soon (i hope) and it will be fine and it will be great because it always is, and I actually am really excited and really grateful
but also a little terrified.
Here's to hoping and praying and wishing that 7 weeks from now I'll be back and healthy and missing El Salvador.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Landlords?! More like landtyrants!!
Most of the time I'm a pretty patient guy when it comes to our landlords. I think they may be a little overzealous and a little paranoid and a little stingy and a little... well, you get the idea. So most of the time I just choose to sit back and let other people dog on them. This time broke the camel's back.
I've had enough of their incessant emailing! How many times do they REALLY need to email us!? I probably get more contact from my landlords than I do from my own parents and family!! When are they finally just going to sit back and let things accumulate? Stop changing things. Stop adding things. Stop critiquing things. Let things be, let them run their course. They complain about funding for their mortgages (Which none of us really need to know anything about. Seriously?!), so if it's such a problem then stop making upgrades!! Stop investing more and put that money towards your extravagant debt already!!! We as tenants do NOT need to hear about it, nor SHOULD ever hear about it. It's unprofessional!
Arrggh! Frustrating!
I've had enough of their incessant emailing! How many times do they REALLY need to email us!? I probably get more contact from my landlords than I do from my own parents and family!! When are they finally just going to sit back and let things accumulate? Stop changing things. Stop adding things. Stop critiquing things. Let things be, let them run their course. They complain about funding for their mortgages (Which none of us really need to know anything about. Seriously?!), so if it's such a problem then stop making upgrades!! Stop investing more and put that money towards your extravagant debt already!!! We as tenants do NOT need to hear about it, nor SHOULD ever hear about it. It's unprofessional!
Arrggh! Frustrating!
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
it's not okay.
I used to think I needed to marry a guy who had really high expectations for me because there is something inside me that is stubborn enough to never say "I can't."
Sometimes I thrive in those kinds of circumstances.
But recently, I've realized that, while high expectations help us grow, unrealistic expectations make us give up.
But there comes a point when lines are crossed and the expectations you hold for other people are more than anyone can live up to.
And when you mock them because they fail or because their priorities aren't the same as yours, because they are involved in more than just your life's work,
that's when it's too much.
When I'm getting fired up and all I want to say is:
You just DON'T treat people like that. Just because you are in a position of authority does not give you the right to act like a child.
To ignore people's efforts.
To interrupt them.
If you expect people to listen to you or trust you or ever want to be around you, you have to give them the respect their efforts as well as their successes.
I just have two more words for you: positive reinforcement
Sometimes I thrive in those kinds of circumstances.
But recently, I've realized that, while high expectations help us grow, unrealistic expectations make us give up.
But there comes a point when lines are crossed and the expectations you hold for other people are more than anyone can live up to.
And when you mock them because they fail or because their priorities aren't the same as yours, because they are involved in more than just your life's work,
that's when it's too much.
When I'm getting fired up and all I want to say is:
You just DON'T treat people like that. Just because you are in a position of authority does not give you the right to act like a child.
To ignore people's efforts.
To interrupt them.
If you expect people to listen to you or trust you or ever want to be around you, you have to give them the respect their efforts as well as their successes.
I just have two more words for you: positive reinforcement
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