it's not okay.

I used to think I needed to marry a guy who had really high expectations for me because there is something inside me that is stubborn enough to never say "I can't."

Sometimes I thrive in those kinds of circumstances.
But recently, I've realized that, while high expectations help us grow, unrealistic expectations make us give up.

But there comes a point when lines are crossed and the expectations you hold for other people are more than anyone can live up to.
And when you mock them because they fail or because their priorities aren't the same as yours, because they are involved in more than just your life's work,

that's when it's too much.

When I'm getting fired up and all I want to say is:

You just DON'T treat people like that. Just because you are in a position of authority does not give you the right to act like a child.
To ignore people's efforts.
To interrupt them.

If you expect people to listen to you or trust you or ever want to be around you, you have to give them the respect their efforts as well as their successes.

I just have two more words for you: positive reinforcement

Utah winter is...

dangerous

cold

slushy

annoying

inconvenient

frustrating

ridiculous

monotonous

only pretty the first day when you are inside

endless

really sucky.

Hold on, if you feel like letting go.

We're all thinking it, so I'm just going to say it:

I hate finals.

My brain is turning to mush.

While walking to the RB to practice Rumba, by myself:

I stepped in a huge puddle and got my right foot soaked.
I realized I forgot music to dance to, so I'll look really cool...dancing my myself..to the music in my head.


And then I got sprayed with snow/slush/rain/mud/vomit from the sky by a DUMB car that drove by.



GRRR.

Sometimers

I officially loathe:

-Verizon Wireless
-the 5 passwords that I must know to change anything about my account
-the fact that somehow I subscribed to play Ms. PacMan on my phone, without my knowledge, and have been reprimanded by my mother twice for it. Not her fault, but frustrating for us both.
-the fact that I deleted said Ms. PacMan from my phone, but apparently am still paying for it. (what the heck?!?!)


gahhhjkdsfjkdslagjvdslkjklgvdsajkl&!&@&!#(*#$&!

I hate technology. I don't htink this will ever change.

Give me a typewriter, a pen and a face to talk to. So sick of screens.

an addition to below post

Not to mention the fact that I will be gone TEN days!

Ten days away from classes, friends, and Josh.

:(

so there.

something worth venting about.

I really don't like the word "hate," but I can't seem to find a better word at this moment.

I hate books that are filthy. and I mean filthy, filthy. Filthy enough to make me put them down, even when the non-filthy parts are sooo potentially incredible. {And I am selective about what I read/watch, but I am not someone who gets squeamish during a PG movie.}

And I hate when you can't even get past page 5. At least the author has the decency to warn you early, that this is not the kind of so-called "love" you believe in and/or want to read about for 500 pages (and believe me, I skimmed a great deal of it, and saw more than a few choice expletives, as well as some "scenes" I have no desire to reproduce in my head)

And I hate that books don't have a rating system. That would make things so much easier. Books are supposed to be better than movies, right?

Grrrrrrr! <---that is how I feel inside right now. Blood boiling. Almost the same way I feel when I think about landfills, and anti-mormon stunts at Conference.

Guys.

A few words of advice to the sometimes unaware male:

FACT: It does NOT make YOU look smarter, when you make a girl feel stupid. It actually makes you ten THOUSAND times more unattractive to her.

FACT: If you want to have a normal relationship/friendship with a normal girl, have a normal conversation with her once in a while. {NOTE: stupid comments, teasing remarks, singing ridiculous songs in her face, trying to trip her, or smacking her butt with the pizza peel do not count. This can sometimes be funny and some guys can get away with that, but you are probably not that guy. don't take the chance. and that guy does all that in addition to having normal conversations.}

Gaaaaaahhhh.

EDIT: This was not directed toward the only guy (that I'm aware of) that reads this blog. He is not a jerk, and has never made me feel stupid.